Honey child – you trying to sort yourself out is akin to a brain surgeon trying a bit of brain surgery on himself. When you start talking like “having to sort oneself out” it indicates recognition of a problem. And when it is mind altering chemicals as the “problem to sort oneself out of” the last thing anyone can trust is their “own” mind. That’s what HELP is for – to help YOU help YOURSELF without distressing yourself with imaginings. Face it, admit it, youth here is not an asset – take it from more experienced and insightful people – AND give it a REAL go. You may be singing another hit tune on that idea… All the best…
Mac